I have to set you free,it's the only way you can come back to me.

Depressed..Have you ever been in that situation? Well, I know I am now.. The reason to it? John was offered an internship/scholarship program by Petronas. Yes,I should be more than happy for him, but selfishly,I am not. I can't stand the idea of being too far away from him. And for a year?! I think that's a bit too much, now, isn't it? I am addicted to him (corny? Yes,sue me). Being apart from him just makes me shiver. Owh how am I going to survive? He's my air. I don't want him, I NEED him. Owh why, owh why am I being so selfish? I should support him, be there for him, making sure he is ready for this both mentally and physically. At first, I haven't really grasped the whole idea of him studying in Terengganu until this evening when he picked me up for our last date before he go off tomorrow and I saw him in his new haircut, that reality struck me, it is really happening. My boy is gonna leave me for a long while. Don't let me start on that ridiculous haircut No. 4. He looks like, Golem. Well,he called it the Micheal Scolfield hairdo. Looks like, the only positive thing I can see from all of this drama is that with those haicut,he wont be getting any attention from the girls (but I can't be so sure as there are many fugly boys out there who actually cheated on their GFs). Hmmm, still very emotional right now. School's gonna open soon. Haven't got my drivers license yet, it's been taking longer time than I expected. Next week is RainFest. Not sure if I'll be able to make it with all this emotional distress. Looks like my BF is asleep. I guess I should too. One last look of his face tomorrow. And I want my goodbye kiss to be a memorable one. Nites, Hugs & Kisses.